Tranquil Sanctum

New Year gift #01, Flu Virus. v -.- v

First of all a very happy belated new year to all you people out there. Currently I'm down with a flu, and throat infection. The throat infection lasted nearly 2 weeks already. @_@ So lemme summarize what happened. New years eve, got body aches high fever and throat infection, didn't see a doc' still went out anyway with Dennis and gang *serves me right.. =_=* Next day could hardly move a muscle, was dragging myself to the doc's place to get a medical cert. to excuse myself from work, it was the 1st of Jan, what a day to get sick.. =_= got better the next 2 days which were my off days, coolio~. and went back to work. During this week one of my colleagues was sick so i didnt gave much thought bout it even though i still had a minor coarse throat. At the end of the week, I'm back here at home bearly able to move, and forcing myself to type this post and to update my cobweb-ed blog. *gimme a yay man. -.-*

but I guess its all for the better, except the fact that tomorrow happens to also be my off-day. hium is gonna suffer managing the whole store alone. Sorry hium, if you're reading this blog, I owe ya dinner for that.^^

Oh yea.. forgot to mention, not working at the airport anymore, to be exact, I didn't even start in the first place. Don't get me started 'bout talking about that job experience. It sucks and thankfully I didn't experience it first hand. But still.. don't wanna talk 'bout it. I wouldn't want a 5 paragraph essay on that. @_@ Currently I'm working at Cold Storage somewhere in SG. The environment isnt that bad, neither are my superiors. well except maybe for one. >.> The only bad pt 'bout the store manager he loves us part timers going extreme overtime. It may sound good at first with all the bonus cash. but.. its gets boring and tiring after awhile. -.- I mean during the week of X'mas I worked 'bout near 60 hours on that week. Talk 'bout ouch man. We part timers work longer than full timers man. Its real tiring, especially when the same cycle has been ongoing for the past 1 month+. Well I seriously hope our manager cut us some slack at least before the Chinese New Year period knocks in, its round da' corner. anyway.. time to click off, I'll try to update soon enough. hardly got time and too tired to do anything after I get back from work. gotta go rest now, I've got a feeling I'm gonna get hell when I get back to work.

ではまた。

41 more days..

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target achieved? or so it seems..

seconds click by, dust bunnies fly high. clearing up 11 years worth of books is no joking matter alright. yes, 11 years, meaning elementary school books are still piling at the dusty corners with cobwebs all around it. well okay maybe it ain't that bad, but still.. dust bunnies have been freeloading that corner for a long time since.. uh.. beats me. =/ anyway ever since my major papers, da O's ended. life seems filled with the freedom of doing whatever ya want ya know. just that you know, every time before freedom gets to you, theres always this long list of "wanna-do stuff". when you finally receive what ya want, you cant really figure out what you want to or perhaps, have to do.

let me try to do a short list.

- clear out my stuff especially school books
- re-organize my space
- start practicing manga and get better
- get work and live life independently
- spend the remaining time I have, get a new habit like reading or something./play games.

right, that should be about it.

so far, hmm.. other than clearing and reorganizing my stuff, I've been gaming, gaming and gaming all day long. =_= But the good thing is, I'm starting work next week and I doubt I'll have anytime for myself like games and stuff, thats probably why I've been locking myself at home and playing close to 24/7. no life? yes I know. I just started drawing once again after some moral encouragement from melcolm, he's doing very well, haha. as for me.. I slacked off.. =p so yup my drawing skills dropped quite a bit. bah, well thats a lesson at least. "never give up!" Monday, work starts, gonna work at the airport, its far from where i stay but haha, doing it work a new working environment, not everyday you get to work on the airfield haha. honestly, I feeling kinda anxious, its my first time working so yea hope I don't screw up on that day. alright, I'm gonna click off for now, I'll try to change the whole blog theme and layout, its getting kinda boring, but that will take time too. hopefully i get it done before new year, a new year, a new layout. XD alright, I'll look forward to doing that. but for now.. *click*

what is life when it has lost it's meaning?
why not just live it to it's fullest?

ではまた。

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the arrival of my 17th year of living and 1 more month to go!

it's a bit late but ya, my 17th birthday past a few days back, and with the preliminary exams over now, catching my breath wouldn't be so tough.. whew.. my so called "free days" are drawing to an end, that means no more getting up late, haha! but still managed to cram the things i want to do, friends, drawing, games, studying. bah. enough 'bout the usual stuff. well, 1 more month to the majors! w00tz! wish me luck! XD *freedom awaits!*

*oh right got a Wii for my B'day too! BANZAI! XD*

right, 'nuff said, today's topic is gonna be a little more emo and stuff, so yea bear with it. Sometimes it just hits me hard how does it feel to be in a real relationship, not your ordinary puppy love crap but when you guys really have something for each other. I know what the adults would usually say would be like, "Don't bother 'bout these things at your age, you're too young for it." At a certain perspective that would be true, but hey, humans are all curious especially when you hit your teens. Things of the "love" genre always kill me, cause many things in the past that happened will always get back to me somehow, be it novels, movies or even manga, they just get their way around me. Well, after reading this manga called "Lilim Kiss" today, it taught me something 'bout true love, or somewhat like that (though I still have yet to figure out what it is @_@), okay putting aside the totally wierd and out-of-the-world story line, i mean it always makes u envious and all seeing couples in love especially since one of them is a hunk and the other is a beauty. mehh.. I guess i stayed in the world of fantasy for too long, so much that I get all lost and messed up and probably got upset 'bout the real world. =/ Also for some reason, after read/watching these stuff I will usually tend to look at things at a much wider span, and also feel that there is so much more to life than what I am doing and thinking at that particular moment. It's depressing. D=

anyways, I'm not doing this post to get your sympathy or anything, just wanted to know how it feels, probably because every time after I read about love/romance I always end up feeling all lonely and lost that sometimes it hurts emotionally. Bah. I guess some things are just worth waiting, don't ya think? heh.. ;p

- on a busy district that is created in black & white,
don't let the the rowdy streets intimidate you,
let not the voices of the astray lead you to the darkened back alleys,
after all, the decision lies within the artist to pick up his brush
and colour this canvas of life.

..I feel better now. *_*

ではまた。

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- melancholy -

- clinging on to yesterday's desire for tomorrow,
the future was far too enticing to be ignored.
theories, scriptures, prophecies seemed all to well within reach,
but even at times, the facade within one's mind can be misleading,
even life has its own order..

the chains of time binds down the ideals of men,
men's knowledge over his own heart is limited,
in contrast to its boundless yet simple structure.

men are brazen covenanter of another's life,
once the covenant is broken,
the safeguard of pride shatters momentarily.

emotions embrace this foolery of men with its deceitful arms,
in possession of his ideals and dreams,
it changes the state of mind to a twisted form,
a horrid state that will cripple the heart with fear.

at the brink of dawn,
darkness hides within it's curtain of deceit,
whimpering within these hidden walls.
it's words of sorrow echoed through the whispers of an unheard breeze,
in search of it's acknowledgement from a benevolent maiden.

one of my darker poems that i have written so far, not even sure if it can be even be called a poem, sound like a bunch of emo ranting that came from my head and are mashed up together. bahhh... figured i should drop by and write something, since its been long since I've written anything here. life for me now... how do i put it.. =/ frankly, isn't at it's best right now, so yea, 'nuff said. heading off to study, wish me luck for the preliminary examinations.

ではまた。

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time waits for no one indeed.

yup, you guys probably got tired of me apologising for not updating for so long, blah blah blah. so I'm not gonna do it this time =), it saves us all the time don't ya think? I've got loads of things to talk 'bout, since I haven't been updating for so long, and I'm starting to wonder if my template is collecting dust, or worst, a home for the dust bunnies.. eep! D= (yea ironic that I said I wouldn't be wasting your time. =_=)

lets start off from today, went to a friend's house to pay him a visit, he just got chicken pox cause this is the first time he has it, anyway he won't be going school for a while, like 2 weeks?! o_O and like the O' level orals are like in a few days time, talk 'bout bad timing. =/ hmm.. ohh right! nearly drifted off today's topic, I finally quit Granado Espada, lol it was addictive alright, but I figured it took away too much of my time, and it was starting to bore me, everyday life in the game seems to become more of a routine/chore rather than the fun I was expecting. well, it IS an MMORPG game, so nothing surprising. I'm just curious how can hardcore players of this genre get so into the game that they can stick with the game for so long. I'm just glad I left the game early enough to start on what I have to do, major exams are coming, my days are numbered and theres just so little free time to do what I usually want to do. sigh. not to mention I'm currently in this self-study program that the school has just started last year, sounds helpful ya? I agree, but the timing just isn't right. =_= I mean, after 7 hours in school, I have to stay for another 3-4 hours?! the school says its a period we should push ourselves to the limit, which is a big encouragement(actually, I'm lying. =p), but this is just too tiring. well the good news is, its only 3 times a week. not too bad I guess.

well, thats pretty much what I have to say for now, don't worry, I'll talk more 'bout any events that happened when i was away at the next post, if I remember that is.. =_=

ではまた。

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- azure skies -

the skies of tomorrow won't be the same as yesterday's,
neither will time stop for this moment,
only fated to become a vague yet beautiful memory.
but unlike a memory,
hope drifts along the ever-changing skies,
in search of yesterday's azure skies.

so yup. this marks the end of my 7 days report. be back after the mid years are over, there are still a handful of papers left to go through. till then.

ではまた。

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- hollow depths -

it divides you from others

deep as a bottomless pit,

wide as a valley,
acknowledgement longs to fill the gap between

bottomless as it may seem,

but it may also be a way to connect you with others,

they call it opportunities.

it may be difficult,

but as long as you have friends,

you will never have to fear being alone anymore.

lol, i edited this short phrase that i did long ago over at msn space, i got lazy to think for this one. =p

ではまた。

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- weakness -

man's only failure was to define whats right and wrong,
individual perspectives only confuses each other from that sole fact,
then again..
what is right and wrong when there was none to begin with?
we are all fighting on the same battleground,
just for different believes.
my life's biggest mistake,
not believing myself that is...

ではまた。

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- lament -

the dark arctic night loomed over,
after what seems like a 1000 years of bliss.
within the darkness glows a phenomenon so natural,
they call it the "northern light".
the very avatar of life,
and a promise that goes on through eternity..

ではまた。

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- tranquil twilight -

- the rain pouring seemed never ending,
its been a while hasn't it?,
since doves flew across these skies.
a breeze of bliss blew passed,
the dark curtain of clouds parted,
a nostalgic horizon appeared,
"..Twilight" was all I uttered..

ではまた。

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- reprised melodies -

- an absence within the heart,
the mind ponders if one is forgotten,
nonetheless the spirit remembers.
as seasons passed on in a never ending cycle,
the spirit grew weary,
so the heart asked the mind,
"will I remain as part of a memory..?"
"or.."
"..will my silhouette just fade away?"

ではまた。

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- clarity -

- on a silent night like this,
the clouds swirled open to reveal the pale moon,
the clouds enshrouded around it as if to form wings.
as the moon radiates an envious glow,
the shadow filled street was bathed with a luminous light,
pride was laid down,
anger was vanquished,
sadness was forgotten.

i got bored, this is totally random, meh.. =/

ではまた。

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Digital Dream

have you ever pause a few moments of your hectic life to think, what is it that you want to do in life? and sometimes, you do have an idea what you want to do, but then again.. was it what you REALLY wanted to do? well I certainly do have an interest for manga drawing, but I don't really know if I have a passion for it. I've been doing manga for almost 2 years. I've learnt many valuable experiences and improved quite a bit.

what I do want to really know is this the path that I really want. lately, I've been having these doubtful feelings, because between the age of 16-18 is a time where you make many mistakes. and I certainly don't want to regret many years later for doing something that I realised wasn't my real passion, but it was actually something else, it would be a big waste wouldn't it? I want things to go as perfect as possible (yes. I'm a perfectionist, shoot me if you will.), but sadly life is full of flaws, and there is a limit to everything. well.. I'll continue to search for answers, but till then, I'll remain stubborn and continue to stick with manga! >.<

ではまた。

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Tranquil Sanctum

Saturday, January 12, 2008

New Year gift #01, Flu Virus. v -.- v

Saturday, November 24, 2007

target achieved? or so it seems..

Friday, September 14, 2007

the arrival of my 17th year of living and 1 more month to go!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

- melancholy -

Sunday, July 08, 2007

time waits for no one indeed.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

- azure skies -

Sunday, April 29, 2007

- hollow depths -

Sunday, April 15, 2007

- weakness -

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

- lament -

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

- tranquil twilight -

Monday, April 02, 2007

- reprised melodies -

Sunday, April 01, 2007

- clarity -

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Digital Dream

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